Assalamualaikum & Hi,
Although I'm bubbly, I'm the type of person who likes to be alone on my own. Back when I was younger I rarely told my family how I felt & just figure things out on my own. & I also not very good in keeping in touch with my big family. Only after I started working, I kind of change a lot (like really a lot) in terms of that.
When I was doing my internship, I stayed with my grandmother. That was when I get closer to her & started to love her even more. She cooked a lot of nice food for me. We went to the market together & she taught me about types of fishes because she liked to eat fishes. Her signature dish was Spicy Bolognese pasta, IT WAS SO GOOD! I asked her for the recipe & she gave it to me, it was super easy yet so flavourful.
Last night, I was craving for lasagna. So I decided to make one on my own, by adding a little twist to my grandma's recipe, using lasagna sheet instead of spaghetti & making the cheese sauce. It was so gooooooood it tasted exactly like hers! I told my mother I felt so grateful that I learned that recipe, because one day if she's gone, it will make me always remember her through the recipe.
Back then, which was years ago in my teenage years, I was kind of afraid to love & care for others, because I was scared of being hurt - like whatever I gave to people won't be reciprocated the same way. But I learned from the best, my Mama - that loving even when it's not returned the same way or if you got hurt, is much much better than regretting not doing so.
Even when you think it's too late to share your love with your family or someone you care, it's never late to start, because love can always grow. Now that I already opened my heart to give my love to my grandmother, I started to understand her as a person, & I can never undo loving her. It's easier to love when you let your heart to understand that person.
& so that's what came to my mind, while making lasagna. May Allah bless my grandma, & all of us.
Ps: when I said love it means love as in general love not the lovey dovey oozy doozy love.
Till then,
Adlina