Revenge or forgive?

Assalamualaikum and hi,

This week is a very hectic week and it's Monday, the beginning of the
week! Ya Allah i have 4 days more to face tsk tsk. But it's okay keep being strong girl.

As i'm stress right now, i cant control my temper and i get angry. But the good thing is, i dont scold people, i just curse them in my heart! Hahahaha but its better than cursing them out lout right?

So, i dont like selfish people. I think i'm a selfish person but now i met people more selfish than me. Its like they always think only abt themselves, and sometimes stingy (in terms of money, time, knowledge and etc). Yeah i know its like talking to a mirror haha, but yeah i dont really like it and i dont know how my parents especially my mum are patient to have a daughter like me.

When people are selfish with you, how will you treat them? Revenge or just forgive them and be like naah i'm okay with that?

For me, i try not to revenge, i try to understand them by asking "what will i feel if i'm in their shoes?" But you know, wearing your own shoes is much more better. Cus the thing is when they become selfish and you cannot say anything about it, its like your heart is burning. 

So I decided not to care about that kind of person, like you with your own matters and i'm with mine. That's it, hands down.

But there's a friend of mine, who have such a beautiful heart cus she always think about others, although other people neglect her or being selfish with her. Sorry i'm not there yet, but one day i will.

The most important thing is, DO NOT LET ANYONE CONTROL YOUR LIFE CUS YOUR LIFE IS YOUR LIFE, but, DO NOT DO THINGS AGAINST THE RELIGION.

Be happy, live happily :)

kakak garang

Assalamualaikum and Hi,

Lately ive been so emo, sad and stressed. So, i easily get mad when things do not work.
I'm the eldest sister of the seven siblings, and it is my responsibility to take care of them when my parents are busy, or go somewhere.
But the thing is, sometimes these kids tend to become super duper annoying until i feel like i wanna hit them (yes i did, with the rotan). Well, the way they are naughty, stubborn, annoying, and crazy lazy remind me of somebody who was used to be like this before,

.....which is..ME.

Yeah, I'm just like those kids before, and now, it's like I'm facing another me. Not one, but three okay, THREE! And I dont know how my parents deal with me back before.

I should be nice to them cus, it's just not the right way to teach them. But what can I do, I'm so tired and I can't deal with it.

Maybe I should learn to control my temper, perhaps (if somebody is willing to do my Microecons works then I'll change haha jkjk).
I'm just afraid that this "kakak garang" syndrome will be with me until i have my own kids. No way I'm gonna be so garang to them.

Be patience, just say nice words and keep calm.

Blogging again

Assalamualaikum and hi,

So ive not blogging for a longggg time, and hence i decided to start blogging again and write about positive things ONLY. I know life is hard, but yes we have to move on, and mend our broken hearts.

Hihi so guess who inspired me this time? No no not dena bahrin. Maria elena? No jugak.

Its Vivy Sofinas, or Vivy, the owner of FashionValet. Reading her blog about her life, her husband and son, really inspired me. I believe that she also face hardship in life, but she choose to look on the bright side. Hence, i should do the same too, write about good and random things in life, and the negative side, just write in my diary. Maybe one day if i almost want to give up in my life, i will read all these posts and keep moving on with life.

Besides, i wanna be a positive person cus there's too much negativity in me. To do that i must see things in life as positive and the positive vibes will always stay with me. Insha Allah.

Dia Yg Satu..

Assalamualaikum and Hi,
Lama tak tulis hihi. Sibuk sgt sejak kebelakangan ni. Takla sibuk sgt tp sibuk jugak.

Emm banyak perkara yg aku lalui dan banyak pengalaman yg ajar aku erti hidup. Tapi sempat tulis dlm diari ja sini tak sempat. Haha so masuk balik cerita.
Bila dah besar ni, lain dah hidup aku. Almost 360 darjah berubah, emm mungkin 280 darjah kot tapi banyaklah.

Tapi sebanyak dan sejauh mana perubahan yg aku lalui,
Satu ja yg aku nampak.

Allah.

Kalau kita berubah ke arah hidup yg kita taknak pun sbnrnya, carilah Allah, Dia akan bimbing kita balik. Kalau kita rasa sepi, sunyi dan dah terlalu penat lalui hidup ni, carilah Allah. Aku sendiri pun dah mcm jauh tersasar ja, tapi alhamdulillah masih banyak org yg baik dalam hidup aku yg nk tolong bimbing aku balik. Tu pun aku tetap nak pilih yg salah. Allah dh bg peringatan tapi tetap ja aku nk buat yg salah. Allah dh bg pengajaran dh kt aku tp aku ttp nk pilih yg Dia tak bg.

Aku jumpa org2 yg beriman. Kita tak tahu hati dia tp melalui perangai kita tahu dia beriman, InshaAllah. Daripada gaya hidupnya, dia tak pernah lupa Allah. Apa yg dia buat semua based on apa yg Allah suruh. Setiap perkara yg dia buat dia fikir dulu sbb takut Allah marah. Aku tabik dgn dia.
Aku jumpa apa yg org kata umm kawan yg bila kita tgk dia, kita ingat kt Allah dan Rasul. Baik orgnya. Tapi betul, mmg dia buat aku ingat kt Allah bila aku tgk dia. Tapi tetap saja aku nak buat benda yg aku tahu salah. Susah bila hati tersekat antara nak pilih yg sementara ataupun kekal.

Hmm perjalanan hidup ni banyak ujian yg menakutkan, tapi aku tau ni hanya permulaan. Aku tak masuk banyak lg fasa kehidupan yg lagi mencabar. Aku dah nak habis satu fasa dlm hidup, zaman foundation/asasi. Lepas ni zaman degree. Serius rasa takut, tapi aku hanya harap Allah tetap bagi kekuatan utk aku teruskan semua ni.

Betul, kalau letak Dia Yg Satu dlm hati, hidup ni rasa sgt bererti. Tapi aku ja yg tak reti nak pilih lg :/

cinta

“ Ya Allah, kurniakanlah daku perasaan cinta kepada-Mu, dan cinta kepada orang yang mengasihi-Mu, Dan apa sahaja yang membawa daku menghampiri cinta-Mu. Jadikanlah cinta-Mu itu lebih aku hargai daripada air sejuk bagi orang yang kehausan, Ya Allah, sesungguhnya aku memohon cinta-Mu, Dan cinta orang yang mencintai-Mu serta cinta yang dapat mendekatkan aku kepada cintaMu,
Ya Allah, apa sahaja yang Engkau anugerahkan kepadaku daripada apa yang aku cintai, Maka jadikanlah ia kekuatan untukku mencintai apa yang Engkau cintai. Dan apa sahaja yang Engkau singkirkan daripada apa yang aku cintai, Maka jadikanlah ia keredaan untukku dalam mencintai apa yang Engkau cintai, Ya Allah, jadikanlah cinta-Mu sesuatu yang paling aku cintai daripada cintaku kepada keluargaku, hartaku dan air sejuk pada saat kehausan.
Ya Allah, jadikanlah aku mencintai-Mu, mencintai malaikat-Mu, Rasul-Mu dan hamba-Mu yang soleh, Ya Allah, hidupkanlah hatiku dengan cinta-Mu dan jadikanlah aku bagi-Mu seperti apa yang Engkau cintai, Ya Allah, jadikanlah aku mencintai-Mu dengan segenap cintaku dan seluruh usahaku demi keredhaan-Mu.”

good and bad times :)

Assalamualaikum and Hi,
ive been away fr too long. bcus im to busy with studies, assignment and a lot of other works. so, today im writing this to share about something, that i believe had changed my life.

Lately ive been through a lot of things. ive been facing problems like have to rush to do assigments bcus the due date is soo near, and then have to stdy a lot bcus to enter Monash Uni is aint that easy, ive been to far from my friends (this one i dnt knw y), and the biggest part of my problems is im facing heartbroken. Heartbroken.

Oh well actually facing heartbroken is easy bcus u just hve to let go the person that breaks ur heart, but ive found a quote on Twitter saying that it is hard to let go not bcus of relationship ends, its bcus the trust, the dreams that have been shared just ended like that.

So its really actually very hard to me to face all these especially the heartbroken part. But what's amazing is, actually through all these problems that i have to face, Allah is actually teaching me, and testing me. And there's a lesson that i learn, that make me to come with a theory about life.

through all the good and bad moments that ive been through, ive realised that these moments, either good or bad, both wont last. Its just temporary. Both will end. Bcus in life you will be happy, always do, but at some point, you will face the sadness and sorrow. So, when u have the happiness, enjoy that moment, and when bad times come, be strong enough to face the pain. Remember, both wont last. Being hurt, pain and sad its just a test in life. It is just how u adapt urself to both situation. Its ur choice to keep the happiness and remove all the sadness. If u choose to be angry and sad at life for what uve been through then thats what u have to go through. But if u get up and believe that the rainbow is not always there in the sky bcus rain will comes, but after the rain there will be rainbow..u will move on with life in a way that u never expect. One word to summarize this, is syukur (grateful). For what we have and for what we dont have. For what we gain and for what we lost. Be grateful. For every moment in life that He gave you.

Many events had happened in my life, and the theory is true. Now im holding on to that in order to keep me strong. Its really not easy, but bcus its the best to do for myself, i have to try. Try to enjoy life in a proper way, which will make us happy, always.
And remember, everything that happens in life comes for a reason, which Allah wanna test you, bcus those who believe will always be tested :)

Do men think that they will be left alone on saying, "We believe", and that they will not be tested?
(Al-Ankabut 29:2)

Patutkah manusia menyangka bahawa mereka akan dibiarkan dengan hanya berkata: "Kami beriman", sedang mereka tidak diuji (dengan sesuatu cubaan)?

P/s: sorry for the bad English

kosong.

Assalamualaikum and Hi,

Macam lama ja aku tak tulis kat sini. Hehe. Sibuk.
Okay lupakan tu.

Hampa pernah  rasa kosong tak? Hmm i mean, rasa mcm something in you is missing, you feel ada benda yang kurang.

Aku tgh rasa mcm tu skrg. Dan aku tgh cari sebabnya.

Mungkin aku jauh dari Tuhan? Aku cuba dekatkan diri dgn Dia dan aku yakin tu bukan sbbnya.
Mungkin hidup aku bosan? Tak, aku cuba isi dgn perkara yg buat aku rasa bahagia.
Mungkin aku homesick? Aku contact ja ngn family aku, lgpun aku dah 6 bulan lebih kt sini tkkn homesick lg.

Bila aku terfikir balik, mungkin aku ada gaduh dgn org, or buat org sakit hati kot?
Mungkin. Hmm mungkin tu sebabnya.
Yeah, aku pasti tu sebab dia.

Kadang2 aku terlalu fikirkan perasaan sendiri sampai tak fikir apa org lain rasa.
Kadang2 aku nak betulkan keadaan tp tak kena cara smpi ada yg terluka.
Kadang2 aku jadi selfish, dan biar ja kt org lain.

Mcm2 yg bpusing dlm kepala aku,
Berperang dgn diri sendiri, dan perasaan aku.

Apa la yg patut aku buat utk betulkan keadaan, dan buat hati ni dh tak rasa kosong lg?
Entah. Aku buntu. Aku harap Dia akan bg aku kekuatan dan tunjukkan jalan utk aku buat baik dgn org.

Aku pun manusia yg ada hati yg rapuh dan sng terluka.
Yg mudah terasa dgn org lain jugak.
Tp hati aku dh immune ngn semua tu.
Mybe dh smpi masa aku mengalah, buat baik dgn org.
Sbb aku fhm erti sakit tu.

p/s: Sesiapa pun yg baca ni, im sorry fr every wound and scars tht ive made in ur heart.

Feelings and Love

"Sometimes we tend to forget tht people around us also have feelings.."
"true love is when all that u love is bcus of Allah.."

......

Assalamualaikum and hi,

"Worrying abt dunya is a darkness in the heart while worrying abt akhirah is a light in the heart"

How abt us?
Did we think and do more good deeds fr akhirah, or vice versa?

hmm.

ignorance.

"Ignorance is hurt.."

"Ignorance is like when an antigen enters ur body. It will hurt at first, giving a lot of symptoms of diseases, but the body will produce antibodies to fight against it, and the antibodies will keep the memory of that particular antigen. When second exposure to the antigen occurs, the body will produce antibodies rapidly to fight more. At one point, the body is already immune to that antigen, and cant even feel the pain and finally the antigen means nothing to the body. So dear,ignore me more. Make me hurts until i cant feel it anymore. Make this feeling just fade away. Make me become an ego person. Make me know tht im no important at all. And pls, make me know how to move on.."